Am I HIV POsitive? My fiance of two years was gunned down a month ago and the hospital confirmed that he was +?

I've noticed a strong discharge odor and also I keep getting sick a month ago I had Bronchitis and now I think I am coming down with it again however when I got my annual check up my test came back negative. I am scared and confused i just recently recognized a rash on the insides of my thighs. also I have this migrane that wont go away unless I take aleve or advil and i am so scared that I have HIV. I just dont understand why I am having these strange feelings that I am. I went from 250lbs to now 224lbs in a short period of time. I also know that my lips stay dry and my right hand sometimes burns on the area where my knuckles are then a rash shows up. I would have never thought that my fiance would have with me and know that he was HIV positve and not tell me> In the past I always got back negative tests for STD"s and HIV. What is going on> ?